...trust... or faith??

OK i am confused/HEART BROKEN/BETRAYED/and alone once again... but i may not have a right to be.. ugh idk. Say you tell someone a secret. You expect them to keep it between the two of you. Well I've kept ALL of this persons secrets. Took the blame and pretended something was me when it was them to save them from a fight with their spouse. Yet they tell someone mine.

Should i have trusted them? Maybe no one should trust me because i keep this secret. Everyone has things they don't want anyone to know! Should you have faith that you can have that one person who u can tell anything and they wont tell anyone or just trust that everyone will let you down? And there is no such thing as a secret? Gossipers have that other bff whom they must tell everything even if its not their business to tell..?

So what was their motive? Love of gossip. To make me look bad to the person they told in an effort to make them self look better. No self control. Or should i have just not trusted them because they had NO intentions to keep it to them self anyway...

I am a private person. You know this..that's how i like my life. And i don't tell your secrets. I never have not even out of vindictiveness or revenge. Yet you have time and time again. There is so many things i can think of you've asked me not to bring up or times I've played along to your lies.. What did i do that makes you hate me so BADLY that you need to tell people things!

And if you didn't mean to yth cant you just take responsibility! Are you that untouchable that hateful that cold that you can just hurt someone and when confronted you blame them for your slip?! Ugh .... whatever I'm pro at keeping my mouth shut. Walls back up!